Wednesday, November 29, 2006
its 2.03am and i aint sleeping so this post is one to read! haha. anywaayssss! pretty simple day, soccer with my oh-so-long-reunited cousins! was pretty fun cause i got to see bert get stepped in the balls. HAHAHA. ok, so hung with the guys after! shimmy kt viknesh and mchomingbabyyyyyy. ok feel like someones missing.. uhh. ok, and its my bro's big 16 today! so dad brought us to eat. OK TODAY WAS MUNDANEEE. and im really really tired. haha. ok, i need new tunes, my ares is full of outdated music. hahaha.randomm.ok anyways, life's too short to be wasting time getting pissed at certain people right? no point trying to face some people who are just, mm simply not worth the time + energy + breath + a speck of dust + everything else. why should we not turn our backs on people who beat around the bush + all over the bloody world but can't come straight to the point and say it on yo face? well, see, it doesn't matter really, cause i'll rise above you. i shan't steep as low just to get something unimportant said, cause as long as i have my love and friends, they are all that matters.
eternity will never be enough for me and eternally will live our infallible love
Monday, November 27, 2006
ever felt caught in something you cant free yourself from? like when your supposed to be this person for this someone, and when you do something wrong, you suddenly get judged? and its not that you dont wanna accept that you've done something wrong, but you feel like, you dont know who to be? or what to do? how do you choose? how do you act? how do you change?
turn over everything, time can heal us again. i'm tender in your arms.
reaching inside of me bringing the love i need, the loneliness has gone.
Saturday, November 25, 2006
my carmen's gone to hongkong! no shopping for a week! life sucks. i need a job seriously! ahh damnn. CARMEN COME BACK QUICK SO WE CAN GO JOB HUNTING. AND O, HAVE YOU SEEN JUSTIN TIMBERLAKES NEW VID? CS HE'S HOTHOTHOT! thnk every living soul out there wants to marry JT. i mean can you tell me you dont wanna marry jt? OK SOO IM WAITING FOR EPISODE 8 ONE TREE HILL TO DOWNLOADDD, AND ITS TAKING FOREVER AND GETTING ME FRUSTRATED CS EPISODE 8 LOOKS PRETTY AWESOME AND I CANT READ THE DAMN ASS EPISODE RECAP CS THERE AINT NO EPISODE RECAP?AND ITS SO EXCITING CS BROOKE AND LUCAS MIGHT BE GETTING BACK TOGETHER AND MUAHAHAHHAHAHAA!!!! IN YOOOO FACE PEYTOOOOOONNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!
I NEED MY EPISODE 8 PRONTO!!!!!!!!!!
Monday, November 20, 2006
hello there! EXAMS ARE OFFICALLY OVEEEEERRRRRRRRR!!!!!! damn this feeling's good, like a weight lifted offa your shoulders! time to mega slack + eat + tv + sleep + worrk???? + eat + tv tv tv! andd..you gotta love your biatches!!
haha ok anyways i found this comic strip funny. aint it not?
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most of the time, we can't tell what's wrong with somebody by just looking at them. after all, they can look perfectly fine on the outside, while their insides tell a whole other story. not all wounds are superficial. most wounds run deeper than we can imagine, you can't see them with the naked eye. and then there are the wounds that take us by surprise. the truth with any kind of wound or disease is to dig down and find the source of the injury, and once you've found it, try like hell to heal that sucker.
Friday, November 17, 2006
are you who you wanna be?
ehh brekwerkz kinda stinks la, but the portions damn huge! but damn ex also! ok whatever, maybe its just me! haha! anyways, long time since i hung with the guys! super superrrrrr long! what happened to our movie outings and lunches and dinners! and err.. everything! shimmy kt dez homingbaby viknesh! ehh! i miss miss miss miss you people. ): i wanna haaannnnnggggg!!! haha ok anyways, here something for you WWW.
HAHAHAHAHAHA LOOK! ok fine if ya cant interpret, thats some banglah video-ing a buncha girls. WAHLAU EH? HE SHIOK SHIOK VIDEO FROM TIONG BAHRU ALL THE WAY TO OUTRAM PARK. TSK!! wahlan eh.. singaporeans stupid ar? cannot tell a cheekopek? banglahs = cheekopeks! HAHA. ok fine maybe not all, but they look like those kind who'd rape you right? or squeeze your boobs after spraying at yo face during a festival along the streets of orchard road! damn! just pay some MONAAYY and you get the whole figure down at geylang la. tsk. take video only, clothed and all, very shiok meh? Tuesday, November 14, 2006
hello hello hello! tuesdays suck! i need a weekend. weekdays are lies, they trick you into staying home all day, well cause the weather sucks, and ITS A WEEKDAY! people have school and stuff, or not, people are just lazy, even im feeling abit lazy. ok fine, very lazy. and i hate staying home all day, makes me eat a hell lotta food! damn! im still waiting for my constantine cd tho, mchoming ditched me for soccer. ): haha. ok whatever, so, weekend, never ever go to marina bay for steamboat, cause it stinks, and the place is a hellhole/dumping ground/filth. PLUS, its raining season, and the bloody bugs are everywhere la, can like drop from nowhere! ok la, but at least got to eat whole buncha seafood.
hahaha, well that was sunday, yesterday to vivo! eh vivo sucks la, make you wanna spend $$$, somemore im beanless, and i cant spend $$$!!!!! aiya, im gon stay home if im broke from now on, time = $$$$!! haha! i shall wait my days away till i get my allowance again! hahaha! i think i should get a job seriously, or join a club, or do both!! i think i'll do both, examshavent even over, everybody keep playing soccer la, my joints like gone already la. people need to stop asking me out for soccer. ok, lazy oready, pictures speak! watch this space!!! http://kaypeebaby.livejournal.com. GO!
someone give me stripes from GAP!
vivo city sucks. vivo city sucks. vivo city sucks.--
there are times when even the best of us have trouble with commitment, and we may be surprised at the commitments we're willing to let slip out of our grasp. commitments are complicated. we may surprise ourselves by the commitments we're willing to make, true commitment, takes effort, and sacrifice. which is why sometimes, we have to learn the hard way, to choose our commitments very carefully.
i dont wanna hurt you i dont wanna make you sway, like i know ive done before, i will not do it anymore.
Saturday, November 11, 2006
don't people just leave you behind all the time? stuck in a moment? where you take a few minutes to contemplate and try grasp what had just happened? yeah well, that feeling sucks. it's like when something bad happens to you, and you wonder, if that big dude up there who controls, well practically everything, was playing a game with you. something grabs your mind, or rather, your heart, leaving you thoughtless, empty and alone. and sorry is just a word, cant prove anything. it's difficult to tell if a person is really sincere. life's a show, and it seems pretty easy to pretend to be sincere, or maybe some people just trust the wrong people too easily. because the same shit keeps happening over and over. and obviously sorry doesnt really make up for leaving you behind. people can always forgive, but i bet they wouldnt forget what you did. so forgiveness is just a lie we all tell. cause a memory lasts forever. and even time couldnt erase it, its true, time heals all wounds, but wounds leaves scars behind, and its always gonna remind us about the past, and the pain.
i am not your rolling wheels, i am the highway. i am not your carpet ride, i am the sky.
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
how do you know when the person your with, is the right one to be with? honestly? i dont know. but theres this feeling, that gets me everytime. every minute i that im with you, every second that you hold me close. and this feelings safe, like i could fall a hundred stories down and still land on my feet without hurting myself. and it comforts me to know that you are the one whos always there to break my fall each time i trip. and this assures me, because even if your not the one, at least for now, i know my heart is secure with you.
ive always been a dreamer, have my head up in the clouds, but now that im coming down, wont you be my soild ground?
Friday, November 03, 2006
there comes a point in life where you wished everything would just move a little slower, right? like a speeding bullet, its november again! and well, chirstmas is totally just arnd the corner, and soon after that new year! well only one thing comes to mind really, SHOPPING. i need a total shopping drug. damn i sound like a freakin bimbo. ok whatever, beats being moody and emo and stuff. well at least i know dec's gon be a great one! 1 more week till majorrrr majorrr exams are over! well sort of! cant wait cant wait. i mean im already planning what to do after friday lo. bloody hell, im such a stinking big mega time slacker. wished life would spin a little slower, then i'd have more time to do more things, like.. err.. study! ok then again, i so want all of this to be overrrr. i need a break, even tho it feels like ive been taking one since last year october? haha yeah thats how long its been, 3252452 freaking months! this is making me confused.
well, seems like time takes pleasure in kicking our asses. for even the strongest of us. it seems to play tricks. slowing down, until it freezes, leaving us stuck in a moment, unable to move, in one direction or another. time flies. time waits for no man. time heals all wounds. all any of us wants, is more time. time to stand up, time to grow up. time to let go. time.
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there comes a time when every life goes off course. in this desperate moment, you must choose your direction. will you fight to stay on path? will others tell you who you are? or will you label yourself? will you be haunted by your choice? or will you embrace your new path? each morning you choose to move forward or simply give up.
there comes a time when every life goes off course. in this desperate moment who will you be? will you let down your defenses, and find solace in someone unexpected? will you reach out? will you face your greatest fear bravely? and move forward with faith. or will you succumb to the darkness in your soul?
- can't stop this thing we've started
we are left with a choice. either let the guilt throw you back into the behavior that got you into trouble in the first place, or learn from the guilt and do your best to move on.